Saturday, 28 February 2009

Applied for a disable blue badge....I had my application refused

I applied to have a disable badge as I think it would let me try and get used to my doctors, shops,restraunts etc etc.. even if I had to go in hospital I wouldnt be able to park outside the door. As I have no disable badge even thou I cant walk more than a few feet.. cos of my anxiety

My letter stated I cant have a badge cos the somerset county council have strict adhererence to the policy and criteria means that badges are only issues to those people who would otherwise find it impossible to visit shops, public buildings or other places.

hmmm so I dont fit in that catorgry???? ffs do they understand agoraphobia?? did they even look at my aplication formn??

people who have disable badges some of them park in car parks along way from shops etc and walk there!!! so they find it impossible to get to public places so they? what an excuse!!
well Im going to fight for agoraphobics and mental health sufferers!! and get that badge.

This is some info I found whilst reasearching agoraphobia and disable badges.

I am going to get a letter from my doctor, therapist contact some mp's from the council etc and someone from the mental health team in my area and kick ass!!

This is the information that the blue badge scheme website gives you on mental health

People with mental health difficulties

Whilst driving was described as the only feasible mode of travel for people with panic attacks and agoraphobia, the following issues were highlighted:

  • Problems finding a parking space caused anxiety and panic. A person will abandon a trip altogether due to the inability to find a space.
  • Those with more severe agoraphobia will not leave their house due to walking distances. Even for those with a less severe condition, quality of life would be greatly improved if they could park close to their destination (all severity levels would benefit potentially).
  • Problems going shopping. Parking far away from shops caused a great deal of stress and often meant that trips were abandoned because the anxiety triggered panic attacks.
  • Multi-storey car parks were also difficult for respondents to face due to feeling of enclosure, which could lead to a panic attack.
  • Feeling of getting lost if car is parked far away and can't be found easily. A Blue Badge would mean that respondents could park next to destination which would reduce the anxiety.

Respondents with OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) encountered a lot of problems in reaching their final destinations. The lack of normal parking spaces meant that having a badge would mean being able to park close to the destination. Problems also exist with objects such as barriers, bollards and signs being “dirty” – in addition, parking close to visible dirty objects (for example, litter) caused huge problems.

With Tourette’s Syndrome, repetitive behaviour can hinder the use of public and private transport. They might affect a person’s ability to board a bus. Obsessive Compulsive Behaviours may also distract a road user from the road (for instance, compulsive mirror checking)


This is what I found on the net that the house of commons said about people with mental health issues having a disable blue badge

It is clear that people with conditions such as agoraphobia and social phobia find travelling alone difficult and the risk is sometimes worsened by more serious mental impairments.

Each person who has a severe mental impairment or who have extremely disruptive behavioural problems, which affects their mobility, as in the case of agoraphobia or autism, should be given a badge.

The diagnosis should be irrelevant, but the impact the condition has on the person's mobility and ability to travel should be relevant, not every mental impairment will affect a person's ability and every person's experience is individual, so the criteria should be changed to reflect that.

Social inclusion, better quality of life, and independence are all factors which would be likely to help people who are severely mentally impaired or who have extremely disruptive behavioural problems, who are awarded a Blue Badge would be greatly enhanced by being entitled to the parking concessions.

I think I am in intitles to get that badge!!! do you?

Friday, 27 February 2009

had two hypnotherapy/cbt sessions - Feeling more positive but sleeping untill 1pm

Here are a few things I'm doing diffrent thease days

1, I listen to my Hypnotherapy every night.

2, I walk the dog as far as I can each day a few times a day. which is probualy around 13-18 steps at the minute lol.. but hey im trying .

3, I drive my car to the shop across the road to get my dog a bone when he needs a new one.

4, I'm walking as far as I can in our shop every day.

5, Ive arranged to start Pilates.. meeting the lady on monday. she does home visits also, but I have chosen to go to a class in a hall.

6, I'm thinking about learning meditation

7, I am feeling better in the car now so dragging my husband out in the car when I can lol

8, starting to try and go to cafes and Restraunts

9, I have sciatica quite bad at the moment Ive had it for over two weeks now.

10. I am sleeping untill about 1pm each day.. so thats something I need to change not sure if the sciatica is anything to do with it as I am in quite abit of pain etc,

In the past a new therapy has always made me positive and motivated at the start and it normally goes down hill after a month or so.....

One thing I have done diffrently so far with this new therapy is that I am listening to the hypnotherapy each night and I am actually doing the homework each day. which actually I have never done in therapy. so for that I give myself a pat on the back.

actually I am rather pleased with myself at the moment for all the thing I have written above.
and for me sleeping in untill lunch time is rather shit I must admit and I am relying on my husband to get the kids ready for school. I'm hoping that I will able to have a routine of my own and start to become a proper mummy.

Tuesday, 24 February 2009

getting to know you

1 ... If you could have any superhero power what would you choose?

anything a magic wand could do

2 ... If you could relive one moment in your past, which one would you choose?

A Christmas with my sisters when I was young

3 ... What is your favorite movie?

Pretty Woman or sliding doors

4 ... What is your favorite comfort food?

Chinease or indian starters with mango or sweet chilli dip mmmm

5 ... What is the first thing you notice when you meet someone?

If I like them or not

6 ... Something you find fascinating?

peoples lifes and my own haha

7 ... What is something you are passionate about?

family and friends

8 ... How did you come up with your blog title?

my hubby and I worked it out some how

9 ... If you won the lottery, how would you spend it?

I would buy a really nice house, two cars, not sure what else Id pay off my parents and my sisters morgages also

10 ... What do you like about the opposite sex? Or what attracts you to someone?

I like personality, I look for a man that I know that can pick me up and rescue me from a fire lol

I look at mens chest and arms to see if they are strong haha god i sound odd

OOOh I fancie Simon cowel and my hubby

11 ... What do you know for sure?

That I need to sort my life out im fecking 30 now

Attached or Single? Attached/married

Best Friend? Claire/Lynn

Cake or Pie? Cake

Day of Choice? friday

Essential Item? my bag

Favorite Color? cream

Gummy Bears or Worms? both

Hometown? is where ever my home is

Indulgence? hagan daz ice cream
January or July? July. Summertime :)

Kids? 2 of my own and 5 step kids

Life Isn’t Complete Without? laughter

marrage date 29th april 2005

Number of Magazine Subscriptions? One.. none

Orange or Apple? Apple I want a apple laptop

Phobia(s)? Agoraphobia of course. Fears.. , heights, spiders, snakes

where ever you are let your wind go free

Reasons to Smile? friends

Season of Choice? Summer.

Tag Two ... kaci sarah

Unknown Fact About Me? My Dad calls me Vera as he had a bossy auntie called vera he thinks I take after her

Vegetable? pea

Worst Habit? agoraphobia haha

X-Ray or Ultrasound? ultrasound

Your Favorite Food(s)? indian, wotsits, cereal, fruit corners

Zodiac Sign? Capricorn

Friday, 13 February 2009

feeling down

I have not written in a while.

I've been feeling depressed lately. I don't know what is causing it. I haven't had the motivation to do much more than get out of bed during these past 3 days.

I was feeling quite positive before this phase.


I feel like dead weight. What is it? I wonder.

I have a few theories but I don't want to publicly debate through them. Sometimes, we all just need time to ourselves. I'll be fine.

We all go through these gloomy days.